THE WOUNDED SPIRIT
I grew up in a quite conservative and religious family. We are a brood of five siblings and I am the eldest (all girls). Being the eldest comes great responsibility which I have outgrown the idea that as the eldest in the family, I should be a model to my younger siblings. I am not a perfect daughter nor a perfect sibling. In fact, I am kinda brat. I get what I want and I gave my parents a hard time when they don’t give me what I want. I am stubborn and unreasonable at times. I always wanted to be followed. But I have a greater dream for my family. I wanted my parents to be proud of me. I studied hard and worked on my way to get the college diploma with flying colours. Everything seems so perfect. I have a great family and I am very much confident of myself that I can achieve my dreams. The real challenge I met was when was looking for my opportunity to my career. It was tough. But I hurdle the first challenge in my journey. I finally got a chance to practice what I’ve learned in school. Everything went perfectly well except for one thing. My life is not complete. I am yearning for more. Then, I knew what was missing...it is love. But as I was on my way to finding it, I’ve been hurt, I’ve cried, and I got lost. I went in a different and murky direction. It was the most trying and difficult times. I was confronted with so many questions, mockery and humiliation. It was my fault I know but I don’t know how to get out. I don’t have the courage to let go. I don’t have the courage to make things right and go on with a normal life again. I was a failure and I nearly gave up but God is not sleeping. All prayers were answered and I finally got a chance to get out of the dark. I finally got a chance to stand on my feet again, to recuperate the wounded heart, heal the bruised ego and dignity, and to start a new life. It is a chance of a promise of a lifetime, an opportunity and certainty that comes but once. It is someone who gave me back my life, my dignity and healed the bruised ego. Someone who believed in me, trusted me, and loved me despite of everything. Someone who makes me believed that there is always a rainbow after a rain. Someone who always make me smile through difficult times and lift me up when things are not okay.
With all the pains, heartaches, trials and tribulations I had faced, I believe that I can do everything possible. I’ve learned my lesson in a hard way and those experiences were so great that I drew out the strength that I have now.
As I am turning on a new leaf of my life, I know that I will be facing each new day with him with a smile in my heart because I know that I will be sharing half of my life with someone who loved me truly, my destiny and my soul mate. We are going to tie the knot on the 28th of June, 2008.
It is a complete bliss...
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